So I have officially been in St.Petersburg for a month now 🙂 crazy that its been that long because it totally doesnt feel like it! I am so blessed to be living such a wonderful adventure and loving every second of it, breakdowns and all haha! Ive decided that this post is going to be fun, a lot of people have asked me what life is like here or what is the most different so here goes. Pretty much life here isn’t super different. I mean basically every aspect of my life has changed but not to the degree of super foreignness. Mostly being in St.Pete reminds me of what it would be like to live in New York City except not being able to read any of the signs. Most of the comfort factor comes from me living with an american family thats been here long enough to know how to get americanish stuff here. So far no massive cultural shock stuff though so not much to report on the major differences between here and back home.
Things that make me seem weird to Russians:
1. I smile. Im a super smiley giggly person normal and definitely not on the quiet side but being happy and pleasant-ish out in public is apparently really strange. But because of the way my face is, when im not smiling it looks like im seriously pouting so we joke that it is my russian face. Haha so pretty much everyone just looks super serious and grumpy all the time so I have to work on that.
2. I love to be barefoot inside. I am seriously a shoe/boot addict. I love them so much but as much as i love them I also love love LOVE to be barefoot and here that is a big no no. We change shoes whenever we go in anywhere into inside shoes (tapki) so i have to wear shoes all the time. I fought it at first and wore socks but it was an issue so i have caved and now wear my flats inside bleh but at home, no shoes for me! nope!
Music:
So I hear a lot of American music here because they love the club-ish party music. Dubstep is huge here like everyone loves it haha but its been weird because people will be just hanging out listening to the music because it has a really good beat or is fun to listen to and not even realize that the lyric are just disgusting because it’s in english so that’s been a bit strange. I’ll be out somewhere and hear absolutely vulgar music blasting and people are just sitting and dont even know.
“Russian-isms”
So I’ve made friends with some of the kids here at the school and have hung out a bit to where they are comfortable enough speaking a bunch of english with me which is awesome! That is something that people have mentioned that since I and Rachel have gotten here the kids are making more of an effort to speak english so they can talk with us. I love talking to them and bonding with them but several times there have been some pretty funny conversational goofs! So here for your reading pleasure:
“You are awkwarding me!!” (you are making me feel awkward)
“Im so jealousing her” (I’m jealous of her)
“I will can do not understand!” (mid conversation joke story about being in america and confused by english)
“do not make laugh at me” (dont laugh at me)
“the momma egg-le fed the baby egg-les” (Eagles but said like eggs)
“Im sorry i am forgot my sound today” (i lost my voice)
CELEB SIGHTINGS!!
Not really but thats what it felt like at the time haha. So i am 97.4% sure that i saw Albert Einstein in the metro the other day…not even joking. It was him. Legitimately. He had the hair the rumpled clothes and the exact same face. I’m not even kidding i stopped breathing for a second and had a momentary freak out.
Better than that, I saw the veggie man. There is a man who gets on the metro and does a little commercial deal about selling this vegetable peeler thingamabob and he has been on my train several times, enough for me to recognize him. However I saw him in town in another location just doing daily life sort of things and had to take a breath and make sure that I didnt freak him out in english because he was the veggie mad which he would absolutely not understand.
Best one for me to see so far though. A dog in a windbreaker. Legit. im not talking some froofy looking dress up my dog kind of deal. Oh no. This dog was legitimately dressed in functional casual wear because of it being cold outside! IT WAS IN A WINDBREAKER FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! Not even a cute one seriously just one for functionality purposes wandering around the city. I dont even know why this impacted me so much but i was having a conniption in the back of the car when i saw that thing. I was absolutely cracking up. It was great!! This little dog just strutting around in its winter workout wear. So much good.
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Alrighty on to more serious-ish stuff. I was having some quiet time the other day and getting into the bible and a book i brought with me and listening to some worship music i found on my iPod and at the same time all three of those synced onto one particular passage in the bible and the song playing quoted the verse as well and it really impacted me. The song was a misty edwards song and the lyrics say “I will waste my life, I’ll be tested and tried, With no regrets inside of me to find I’m at Your feet, I’ll leave my father’s house and I’ll leave my mother, I’ll leave all I have known and I’ll have no other”. That really stood out to me because i really feel like that. I know that what I’m doing isn’t some extreme missionary in the jungles break from society kind of thing but I left my whole life and stepped out to do what I was called to and it has been easy. My life here is great and my soul is so at peace but I did leave everything that was my life. My friends, my family, my church, everything that was really comfortable and familiar. It hasn’t been a bad thing at all but it wasn’t easy. As I’ve been here though I’ve spent some more time with the Lord and using this as a chance to really develop a great close personal relationship with the Lord and getting to know myself in Him which is something I have really struggled with in the past. This is like the first big step of faith I have taken in following the Lords direction and I know that i really needed to do this. We have talked here about how Gods planning is nothing like our planning. He sees the whole scale and very rarely does he do something that isn’t beneficial to all He is using. My “momma” was talking to me and she made a really great point. Me coming here was 100% about the school. They needed someone to work with the littles and I filled that and am here to be used. But me coming here was also 100% about me. I needed this. I really did! I needed to take a step out, I have a lot of maturing to do and I needed to be put in a new situation that would test that. I needed to learn to really commit to something for Christ. This was something that has taught me that if you really follow Gods will for your life that even if it is uncomfortable at first that He has a perfect plan set before us (jeremiah 29:11) . Everything is in His perfect will and I am so excited to see what is to come. I’ve personally been through so much already that I know i could never have gotten or experienced had i chosen to stay where it was comfortable and not decided go for this. Even things in my life that have nothing to do with ministry or missions work have been worked on by the Lord here. I’m amazed at the wholeness that you can feel being in the will of Christ that i didn’t even realize i was missing before. I’ve had a few(and seriously i mean 3 max) super emotional moments where i just wanted to quit. Had i had the option i would have come back home. I felt seriously broken and just really bleh. They started over stupid little things but my emotions have always way excessive and that is something that the enemy really uses against me. I am the epitome of drama queen, mountain out of a molehill, type person and it has been something i hated about myself. We had a womens meeting at church and talked about the power of your speech and claiming the power of the Holy Spirit and speaking against attacks in Jesus’ name and it was the first time that I ever thought about my emotional whacked-out-ness. It has been amazing because even in those times of emotional outburst I’ve had enough level headedness to think through things, push through the day anyway and all of those days ended up being incredible. By the end of the day I was sitting down cracking up at the insanity of my breakdown and how great the day turned out and in an incredible mood which never before happened. A horrible morning for me meant a bad week and lots of unpleasantness. So that has been great! I also amazed that I have been able to get ready and leave the house everyday haha. I am not a morning person by any stretch of the imagination and here my latest alarm is set to go off at 5:57am. Usually that would mean a nightmare for anyone around me but i have woken up in a good mood almost everyday, put on makeup and felt great to go through the day which is a miracle in itself.
Prayer stuffs:
In one week the number of my littles has doubled in size which is such a blessing! I love getting to work with them and love on them. It has a lot of challenges also. One of my littles is a rambunctious little guy who hasn’t had much discipline at all in his life and that makes it a bit challenging but little by little things are getting easier. Im doing my best to just love on him and pray over him a spirit of peace and I know that things will be fine. Please pray that I will have wisdom in dealing with my littles and that they will have open ears, minds and spirits, receptive not just to the english but to know that they are loved and cherished and children of the King. Also, prayers for finances would be incredible! Money is tight for everyone and in a lot of life areas because living over here is more expensive in the states but specifically we are praying for a car! We have a 35 minute walk to the bus every morning, a 30 minute bus ride to the metro, a 40 minute metro ride and then a short walk to the school. We go through the school day and do it all again in reverse. Right now it isn’t too bad but once the super cold hits, along with big snow and stuff a car would be such a blessing. So if there is extra room in your prayer time please keep us in mind.
Looking forward to what the next months hold 🙂
Love in Christ
Cassie